It is not an irritating thing... I actually sometimes enjoy it... but there are several times when it can become annoying...
I am talking about finding that "perfect" gift for someone whom you love, whether its your parents, your best friend, or anyone who means a lot to you. I have always found it difficult to get that "perfect" gift for that someone special in my life.
When it is the time near the birthday of that special person, or any other occasion like friendship day, mother's day, father's day, anniversaries etc, you know it is time you hit the mall to find a nice present for the person. It has to be perfect. It has to satisfy your conditions on how the gift should be. It doesn't matter if you spend the entire day roaming around every shopping mall or every commercial area in the city, searching for that gift. It just has to be THE gift.. if you know what i mean! I have done it so many times.
Most of the times it is not all that difficult to find the gift you are looking for. Very often you end up making a mental note when the person for whom you are buying the gift remarks on something that he or she finds attractive, then go and get it some other day, as long as you feel it will make the person happy (and as long as it is affordable... what will you do if your friend desires a Mercedes Benz??? :O) But there are times when searching for the gift can become slightly annoying. As you look through the shops, you keep turning down articles one after another, finding some flaw or the other with them. These are the times when you can get quite irritated with yourself and your inability to make up your mind! Either there are so many things you want to get and you can't settle for one, or there is absolutely nothing that you can find!
It is in such situations that I have pondered over this "perfect" gift mania that I have had all these years and still have! I sometimes really wonder why do I even bother to go through so much of trouble roaming around till I find some article which would just be "perfect". Is it to express my love for someone? Is it a way of telling someone "i care"? I don't think these are the reasons for my quest for the perfect gift... Material objects are not necessary to tell someone you care. Sometimes the other person just knows. Your behaviour, your attitude, your actions just speak out loud, whether you want them to or not. They are sufficient to let someone know how much you care.
Or are they?
I still don't know the answer to this question. I guess if I were to be completely honest with myself, my mania for "perfect" gifts is just to show the person that i care. I know that I just said that gifts are not all that essential to express your feelings. But I guess deep down somewhere, I always worry.. "what if this person doesn't know that I truly care and that I will always be there whenever he/she needs me?", "what if this person does not understand how much he/she means to me?" And to me, gifts seem to be the best way to express myself. I guess that is why I am so picky when it comes to shopping for the perfect gift. It has to convey a sincere message from me. Whether I say it or not, the gift should tell the person on my behalf about how much I care. The gift should be something that the person would cherish and which would remind the person that I will always be there for him/her. Anytime, anywhere.
This is just my theory on the "perfect" gift mania that has taken over me. I am not sure if its correct.
But whether or not it is, I guess the smile and happiness that lights up the face of the person who gets the gift from you is a good enough reason to raid everyt shop in town, just to find the perfect gift, to see the perfect smile and the perfect happiness on the face of that someone special in your life.... Don't you think so? Have you ever been bitten by the "perfect" gift bug???